08/03/2026
✨Delayed Post✨
Recorded this on Wednesday, July 29th, 2026. Posting it today because accountability matters. It’s a long one but this moment right here was the lightbulb moment. That rare occurrence where everything clicks.
If you know me and know me well this is the most on-brand authentic Bela thing I’ve committed to in decades. No more recording and then deleting instead of posting!
Other things I’m actively correcting;
✨No more speaking negatively to and about myself
✨Speaking when words need to be spoken and if they fall on deaf ears it’s ok, they were spoken so it’s done now. Let go.
✨If you don’t love me as is, you don’t love me at all and that’s not a me thing and never was. No more chasing approval. I don’t need it and never did.
✨Stopping to breathe is ok. Not being at 100% is ok. Downtime is not laziness. I am not lazy and never have been.
✨Analysis paralysis is real. I have ADHD and it’s part of the squirrel process.
✨I’ve survived more than most could. I am strong. Need to start believing this one because it’s evidence is literal proof of validity.
✨I am not responsible for all the downturns. S**t happens. What hasn’t broke me, shaped me.
✨I am beautiful. At 44 this one is still a roll your eyes one for me but I’m determined to own it!
✨If my light bothers someone, it’s on them to get sunglasses not me to dim myself.
✨I am creative. I am a writer. I am a natural problem solver. No more letting myself believe I’m not.
✨I live to make the humans I gave birth to, proud of me now. They are my purpose and that is more than ok with me.
✨I swear, often a lot and that’s ok. Spice isn’t for everyone either and neither am I!
✨I don’t identify as a pig so mudslinging isn’t my thing. Believe me if I have something to say to you, you’ll know.
✨I will share my writing and other things I have on-the-go.
✨Everything I have experienced has built me for all that I’ve survived. I choose to thrive now.
✨God made me a mother when doctors told me never! He knows best so I know I am worthy & deserving.
✨I choose love & light but that doesn’t mean I can’t fight, I just choose