04/20/2024
Money
To the three or four people who will read this, I can’t do this. I want to do it, but I can’t. I am not a businessman. I know how to run a business, and I could with capital, but I always reach this point of the many ventures I birthed.
I am spending more energy to figure out finances and how to make this work, so that I am not going to work every day but working on something I feel is important. However, the financial aspect of it all eats away at the soul of the project and my soul as well. I will continue to make Dumpster Dolls and share them here. I will be making the Upper Room card game as I am instructed to do so for the benefit of humanity. I will continue all these things, but I am an artist. I am not a manager or a marketer, and attempting to be one is sending me into the very pit of emotions that creating is supposed to pull me out of. Just filling out this tedious and ridiculously complicated application on Kickstarter is abhorrent and loathsome to me. I do not think I have it in me. I do not have money to print cards, not enough people are buying them, and trying to reach people for sales is part of this process of torment. I wish I could make a job out of this, but my job is to create the products, not produce them. I am relieving my attempted financial duties to a higher power.