06/21/2022
The last 6 years:
As much as I want to say I gave each one of my children the attention they deserve, I know I didn't. For the last 6 years, Jacob, our oldest had my attention almost 100% of the time. And even now sometimes I catch myself consumed with "helping" him. Jacob became a drug addict not long after graduating high school. I tried to save him from that life. I would go running every time he called and said mom I'm hungry. I didn't give him money, but I'd put gas in someone's car so he could get to "work" in the morning. He couldn't stay with us unless he was sober.
We had rules for him but it wasn't hard enough for him. I made things easier for him without meaning to. In April 2019 he told us his girlfriend was pregnant. We didn't believe them because of course we heard it before. Well May 2019 they came for dinner and she's pregnant. I panic, full blown panic attack like I've had before. June 2019 theygot kicked out of the place they were staying so with a baby otw we, I fought for it, let them stay with us. It was hell. Baby came September 2019, with drugs in his system, DHR came they was gonna put him in foster care but I wasn't going to let that happen. I had multiple panic attacks, but never left that hospital unless he went to the nursery, that's when I ate or showered. Five days later he came home with us and has been here ever since. We've since adopted him. At this time his dad is in jail on multiple charges and his mom is in jail on chemical endangerment of a child (him). They are both sober thank God.
September 2018, my mother in law had a massive stroke. We held a grudge for something stupid against her and didn't speak to her for a year before her stroke. By the time we got to her she was in a coma. We sat with her everyday for almost a week before she gave up. Don't hold grudges it's not worth the pain.
January 2019 my dad's what we thought was his wife didn't want him there anymore so long story short he came to stay with me. Dad's only diagnosis was COPD. There was no real reason for him to be in such bad condition 😔. I can't say alot about Dad at this time. Dad passed December 29th 2021.
Presently I am trying to take care of sweet Malikiah, make sure Kloe's going in the right direction, she seems to be doing pretty good now, and spending as much time as I can with loved ones. I am a life insurance agent and working on getting my AHip for Medicare supplements, not to make a lot of money but to help people get the insurance they need and can afford so their families aren't trying to figure it out like we've had to.