20/08/2025
Last night in class, my teacher asked do we jump out of bed immediately after waking up…
Memories jump up. Till about 5 years back I would just jump straight into life upon waking up. 4 years back my back hurt, I almost couldn’t move much. Then I started slowing down. Partly also due to Covid thing been changing. Then these past month, more changes came in. Upon my TCM advice I tried my best to hit the bed as early as 9 pm. The slow down… but my mind didn’t.
Yesterday morning my teacher from thousand of miles away sounded an alarm hinting another friend who, I recommended to meet her is down. Upon discovering it hit hard… stage 4 Cancer, he said that 2 weeks in hospital he almost didn’t make it…I was taken back… he was simply too strong willed. Many said I m too strong mentally I think I can pass the seat to him. So it’s a series of gathering my circle friends for help.
All these shall pass.
We are all in a hurry to jump into life but did we really live and breathe?
Do we always wait till things happen to regret not giving time n space for ourselves... that even that cup of tea or coffee have to be fitted in between. I suddenly appreciate what K said I have to fit you in between my schedules before the daily 6 pm meeting calls n the time from 4 pm onward. So although unhappy that his monthly away, then a week stay here, we tried our best to have 2 cup of chocolate time. Yes… chocolate. His favourite. He will be back tomorrow, flying out on Sat back to see his mum who had operation done on her eyes and attending friends gathering and a wedding. Will miss him for a long month again.
Learning to appreciate his effort, giving myself time to step up closer. 1 of my teacher reminded me that this might be the best for now… as both of us been alone for so long… slowly allow things to come together,
Have you had time to slow down and think through what you wanted?
Good day ahead.
