08/06/2014
Who Wants it All?
I want money,
Lots of it,
I want to be part of something,
Something huge,
Something important,
Something grand,
I want people to recognise me for what I am worth,
I want a lover that understands this,
A lover that reads my mind before I speak it,
I want someone I can spoil,
Someone I can open her skin then caress her tissues,
Let her feed my raging ego as I soothe her scary imperfections,
I do not want to succeed in life,
I want to be success,
A manifestation of some sort,
I do not want to be part of something big,
I want to be something big...
I am human,
I do not know what I want,
What I want is what I think I want at that specific moment,
But what really makes one happy?
Is there a formula?
We want this now, that later,
What doesn't change is the need to be loved even when you are unloveable,
Need to have the resources to soothe pain,
A car to drive away to oblivion,
A partner to *counterbalance your life's dissatisfaction with their skin's satisfaction,
I need lots of money,
Money to buy happiness,
Money to buy loneliness,
With money I can be happy,
With money I can buy more money,
Then more money can't buy the time spent to make money,
All of a sudden I am not happy because there is no money that can buy enough time to spend that money to buy happiness,
What is happiness?
What do you consider as a happy feeling?
Well I am happy I do not know,
Otherwise, why would I live to wake up to another certain day?
The excitement of not knowing what will happen next,
What if I die?
If I was sure of happiness, wouldn't that be boring?
Is boring happy?