27/05/2020
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Growing up, I always wanted to be someone who you can rely on, someone who’s always going to be there for you and someone who’s always good. With that in mind, I was hopeful that people would look at me that way but it came to a point where other people’s opinions matter to me more than what I really think of myself.
I made them more important by making myself small for them to feel better about themselves. That took a lot from me and it exhausted my whole being. My story was “I'm not good enough and I will never be good enough” whether in relationships, career, and education.
The year 2015 was my turning point because I lost one of my favorite people and to cope up with that, I blocked off my family and friends and would also exhaust my body with multiple jobs. It was unhealthy and I was not serving my body well, with grieving and finding back my self-identity -- my insecurity about myself heightened.
There were times where I thought “oh things are getting better” and then I will be put in situations where all the love I built for myself is challenged. I would get hate comments and messages about my body and how I am as a person. I was put on edge and I didn't know what to do.
With the right support system, love, kindness, and genuine connections that I received from my loved ones motivated me to be stronger and be better. It took me years to realize that love and happiness should come within me and not from other people’s validation.
Now, being at peace, accepting me, loving me, and protecting my energy is something that is and will be very important to me in this lifetime. It’s also acknowledging that people go through things that we don’t know about and the least thing we can do is to be compassionate to one another.
We attract what we give out in this world -- If you give out kindness, you receive kindness. If you give out love, you receive love. It’s about creating authentic relationships with likeminded people and raising your vibrations individually and as a collective together.
Always remember that there’s always a light at the end of the tunnel and you’ll get through it. I don’t know who this message is for but you are enough and you are worthy to be loved. Don’t give up because it’ll all be worth it.