11/27/2019
This year has been one for the books! 2019 is slowly winding down as we near 2020. —
I can honestly say, I’m not the same person I was at the beginning of 2019, that’s for damn sure. At this exact moment, I feel powerful and vulnerable at the same time (HOW SWAY?!)
I used to get caught up in the notion of what I think I should be doing, versus what I am supposed to be doing. There’s a difference, check this out:
We have an idea...an expectation of how we we want things to pan out. LEMME TELL U DIS...it’s not up to you (& ima scorpio, I love control) — but like I said, it’s not up to you, me, him, her, ya mama. It’s not, it’s ultimately divine (and the answers we seek are truly within) — such a cliche statement, i know 🤦🏿♀️ BUT ITS TRUE!!
I kept trying to advance in a career that I thought I was supposed to be doing, because get this...I knew I could do the job well (EVEN THOUGH) inside I wanted to be doing something totally different. But I figured, my current job allows me the flexibility to do both, so why not? 🤔
WRONG...I was met with so much resistance even though I know (and everyone else knew) I KNOW how to do the job, but divinely, that job wasn’t for me. I had to accept the blockings, that were truly blessings.
Essentially, I had to take step a back. Like wow, this ain’t for me...time to delete and block, da fuq?! 😂
And even in the midst of stepping back to take a look a self, I had to take a look at those around me. Job. Friends. Family. All of that. —
I’m riding into a new wave this 2020. A new Sav. A stronger, more confident Sav. Just hope u guys are ready 😉✨