13/06/2026
i have to do-lists that I carry in so many different places, from my notes app to my notebooks, to google calendar, from my mind that never stops tracking or managing, + all the different ācalendarsā iāve tried to keep up with. i didnāt realize that there were invisible tasks, too. hoping to hear back from someone. making sure something works out. from growing a list to growing my business. i would carry those items around all day like they were mine to solve, + then iād feel like a failure when i couldnāt achieve them (couldnāt cross them off my list). over time, i realized that half of the unnecessary pressure wasnāt really coming from what i had to do. it was coming from what i was trying to control. i started to surrender, but the thing is, that i like to track what i surrender as well. not track in the sense that itās my responsibility. i wanted to witness it in awe when it did happen. when i wasnāt gripping it. when i could properly detach + still carry a desire with lightness. i started splitting my āto-do listā into two columns. what is mine to carry? what do i actually need to do? what steps make sense for me to take? the left side became my work that included actions, choices, me showing up, my commitments, my promises, the things i actually had capacity for. the right side became everything else. you donāt even need to hand it off to God but you can hand it off knowing that you donāt need to control or carry it all. things like timing, outcomes, other peopleās decisions. itās not really just about writing them down but also truly surrendering and following through, keeping your own words. it has helped me to build trust in myself. to enjoy the work, knowing that who i become in the process is ultimately what iāve been seeking anyway. so by the time the results take place, iām already in a good place. i started to add dates to things as well so i can see how much comes true + how fast. itās been so fun to track, + i do feel quite lighter, freer and better. iām also getting more done that i could do. the rest? iām happy to hand it all off. this is a different way to move through your day + i truly think that this to-do list will teach you surrender.
