20/02/2026
The Lord didn’t ask me to resign… He allowed me to lose my job.
Warning: Long post ahead..this is me finally sharing my story. 🫶
Pandemic 2020.
Biglaan. Unexpected. Painful.
After 16 years of flying, being a Purser in a prestigious international airline…
I lost the job I loved the most.
I had no choice but to go back to the Philippines.
Ang daming tanong.
Ang daming “Lord, bakit?”
Ang daming adjustments…
At ang daming nawala especially a big chunk of my income.
But more than that…
I almost lost myself.
My marriage was struggling.
I fell into depression.
I was broken.
But before all of this…
Admittedly, during the peak of my career
flying and doing networking on the side,I enjoyed the attention.The money.The validation.The awards.The recognitions.The incentives. I was proud kasi pinaghirapan ko ‘to!
Mukhang okay lahat sa labas…
But deep inside…
I was still lonely.
Akala ko kilala ko si Jesus but tbh I didn’t have a real relationship with Jesus.
But that was also the moment God started to rebuild me.
He led me to CCF.He surrounded me with the right people..our couples dgroup.
Slowly… piece by piece…God was restoring my heart, my marriage and my identity.
Our marriage was restored…and we continued our couples Bible study.
Hindi naging madali…
but God became the center of our relationship.
Then I got pregnant with our bunso Pablo 🤍
A gift. A reminder that God is not done with me.
But even in that blessing…another trial came.
2 months after giving birth, Pablo had pneumonia.
We had no insurance that time.
My husband got into an accident too. Our savings were depleted.
Sobrang hirap…walang safety net… walang fallback.
But God sent people.
People who helped us financially.
People who became His hands and feet.
That’s when I saw…
God provides.
God didn’t just restore my situation He restored my heart.
He healed my relationship with my Mama.He humbled me.He taught me to forgive others and myself.
I started seeking Him intentionally.
Not just religion… but a real relationship with JESUS.
Reading His Word.Talking to Him.Knowing Him.
But the trials didn’t stop.
In 2023…we suddenly lost my mom.
And again, I asked,
“Lord, bakit ngayon pa?
When we were finally okay… when I wanted to make bawi…”
Masakit.Sobrang sakit.
But even in grief…
God taught me gratitude.
Because even for a short time…
He allowed us to be okay.
There were moments I broke down.Dami kong regrets.
Tumigil ako sa business of direct selling na minahal ko for almost 10 yrs.Iyak lang ako ng iyak.I was broken.I felt so alone. I could not function na. I lost my self-esteem, burnt out, pagod.
People were used to seeing me strong…
but deep inside, I was weak.
And that’s when God reminded me:
“My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness.”(2 Corinthians 12:9)
So I chose to draw closer to Him.
I joined True Life Retreat at CCF.
I showed up weekly in fellowship.
I continued growing in my walk with God…
even with so many questions.
Because truth is following Jesus doesn’t remove problems. But it gives you strength to endure them.
“Yet I will rejoice in the Lord, I will be joyful in God my Savior.”(Habakkuk 3:18)
And along the way…
God used my story.
God used me to minister to people
who were also experiencing the same pain.
The same confusion.
The same brokenness.
And that’s when I understood…
Why God allowed me to go through those things.
It was never just for me.
Along the way, God revealed who truly loves me,
who stayed and who are real.
I stopped chasing validation.
Because I found my identity in Christ.
Yes, I lost income.
I lost stability.
I lost people.
But I gained something greater.
Peace.
Purpose.
JESUS.
Now I understand when God said,
“Come, follow Me.”
It’s not an easy journey.There are sacrifices.There are tears.
But nothing compares to Jesus…
who gave His life for me.
I am a sinner.I will never be perfect.
But He loves me.
And He made it loud and clear “I AM WITH YOU.”
And now…God has placed me in the insurance industry.
This time i want to do it right. Prioritize JESUS 👆
Not just to sell…
but to SERVE.
Not just for income…
but to fulfill a MISSION and a PURPOSE.
Because I know how it feels
to have your savings depleted…to face a crisis without protection.
And if God can use my story
to help even one family be prepared…
Then every pain I went through
was not in vain. 🤍🙏
Today, I choose to follow where God leads me.
My heart is at peace.
I have joy not temporary happiness,
but the kind that only comes from knowing:
JESUS saved me.
He is my LORD
And He loves me. 🤍🙏
Whatever season you are in right now…
I pray you won’t lose hope.
God sees you. He is with you.
Keep seeking Him. 🤍🙏