22/02/2025
Behind a fake smile, I hide my pain,
Afraid to reveal, the weight I sustain.
Scared to confess, my incurable plight,
Fear of pity, or being treated differently in sight.
My parents, unaware, of my ongoing strife,
I shield them from worry, and a mother's life.
I'm trapped in silence, unable to share
The weight of my illness, the burden I bear
I fear their worry, their tears and their pain
So I hide my struggles, and suffer in vain
But deep inside, I'm screaming to be heard
To have my struggles acknowledged, and my pain stirred
I yearn for understanding, for empathy and care
But for now, I'm alone, with no one to share.
Drifting from my bestie, with a heavy heart,
To protect myself, from a world that's cold from the start.
Whispers of surrender, to a life I despise,
"Sell yourself," they say, with a dismissive guise.
But I resist, though worn, and weary to the bone,
For integrity remains, when all else feels overthrown.
In the darkness, I search, for a glimmer of light,
A way to survive, through the endless, sleepless night.
And though the world may seem, unforgiving and grey,
I'll hold on to myself, and seize a better day.
Behind a mask of confidence and pride,
I hide my true self, and silently I cry.
The weight of expectations, a burden to bear,
I'm trapped in a cycle, of pretending to care.
I hurt myself in secret, a cry for help unseen,
Afraid to reveal my struggles, for fear of being judged unclean.
My parents, though imperfect, I love and adore,
Their efforts to provide, I acknowledge, and ask for no more.
To avoid disappointing them, I push through the pain,
And abandon relationships, to maintain a false refrain.
I fabricate a persona, to fit in with the crowd,
A "baddie" image, that's far from the real me, avowed.
My social media posts, a curated show,
Conceal the truth, and perpetuate the lie I've sown.
But deep down, I'm searching, for authenticity and peace,
A longing to shed the mask, and release my true self's release.